[Spring Awakening]

I've lost everything I've ever written about Andrew and Juliet.
And the writing was dreadful anyways.
So before I dispose of my math notebook, I decided to type up the beginnings of another couple's story that I had written along with some graduation project stuff in the back.

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That's totally all I've got so far, which is fine, since Firefox is being a bitch.
Anyway, I totally love Brendan. I feel tons of pity for the boy, but I'm not gonna take things easy on him.
I have character descriptions but I don't feel like typing them up.
The story is set in Baltimore.
Um yeah.

No one has ever measured, not even poets, how much the heart can hold.
-F. Scott Fitzgerald

P.S. Title is from the song Lost Cause by Beck.

The distance is quite simply much too far for me to row…

I glanced over at her, adjusting myself slightly in the ratty old armchair that I was sitting in.  I let the music from the record player flood my heart and my mind and found myself losing all control of my voice.
“Carolynn, I love you.”
She didn‘t even look up to give me a chance to see her beautiful green eyes shining from under the few strands of hair in her face.  She just continued to apply her ruby red polish to her toes. “Yep.”
“Even though you’re an absolute bitch, I swear, I love you all the same.”  My cheeks felt as red as her toes looked.  It may not be proper for grown men like me to blush, but I’m a sensitive fellow, so it’s really not my fault.
“Yep.”

…it seems further than ever before…

Yeah, I'm not a writer. Whatever.
I still haven't proofread it or anything, so this is a very rough copy; please lemme know about any mistakes you see. :]

This part is simply about regret. Because not all great relationships are going to work out, and sometimes it's just too much to ask that your heart remains in one piece.

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Allusions:
1. "That's when he's more than a memory." - Slightly altered quote from More Than A Memory by Garth Brooks
2. "I'll make it as though he never existed." - Slightly altered quote from New Moon by Stephanie Meyer
3. "1:39" - My interpretation of 21:13, which would actually be 9:13PM, I switched the numbers around, so that it'd be early morning.  21:13 is a Coheed and Cambria song and when I listened to it after writing this I was like, "hey... this is my story!"
4. "He meant more to me than anyone I'd ever loved at all." - Slightly altered quote from Where I Stood by Missy Higgins

And today I will trust you with the confidence of a man who's never known defeat,
but tomorrow upon hearing what I did I will stare at you in disbelief.
Oh inconsistent me,
crying out for consistency.

And you said "I know that this will hurt,
but if I don't break your heart then things will just get worse.
When the burden seems too much to bear, remember:
the end will justify the pain it took to get us there."

-Relient K.